Hey there neglected diary.
Today I went out with someone I really liked. We’d been talking for a while, even got together, but tonight I just..sucked in general. We didn’t connect but we had done for a while.
After a while I realised I had some kind of mental block. You get in the way all the time and I can’t stop thinking about it. It’s got past that crappy depression bit, it’s just a massive obstacle whenever I meet someone, because now I never have any courage, I just turn completely stale and stay friendly even though there’s been blatant signs.
Fuck it, I’m talking to a brick wall. Ahhhh
