A job, happiness with a girlfriend, going into a new band, and what’s more there’s a fair in Beccles on tonight. I feel happy, but life has made me so that I can’t really do anything without anticipating something round the corner waiting with a large bat. I’d prefer it if it was physical damage, I’m bored of being mind-fucked by stupid little niggles. Please, bad things, don’t come until 21st August when the highlights of my summer effectively finish. Cheers in advance.
The amount of times I’m thinking about it now – I’ve been in the city every day this week, either Norwich or Yarmouth, but I just want to be there forever. It’s seriously trashy, gangster and unsafe but I love it.
Last night we wandered down to the beach, sat on this random block of pavement and drank until it was dark – loads of people turned up and it was just pretty cool. No-one seems to have the trashy nasty dirty parties anymore, or maybe I just don’t get invited…
Hehe, I actually downloaded Hadouken, I couldn’t help it. ‘Welcome to our world, we are the wasted youth, and we are the future too.’ Brilliant, hehe, just sums up all the underage drinking I’ve been around and not cared about in the past few weeks.
That’s another thing, suddenly I’ve got all mature-ish. I say ish because whenever you’re around I revert to childhood, but I prefer beer rather than spirits, look after people, am just generally less childish. Maybe it’s because I’ve been more independent than usual recently, with searching for jobs, taking an hour and a half trip to Yarmouth and randoming about trying to find people I know but I feel I’ve changed. I was talking about it yesterday with Maddi – I thought Avenged Sevenfold was a year ago, it was only January – I look back and the amount of stuff that’s happened since then has been immense and a real difference. It’s a good thing, I prefer this lifestyle. I just hope I get into uni so I can move just a little further in my life. Fate’s given me a torch but no batteries, I need to get a job so I can fuel this fantastic existence being in places other than in front of my computer every day. Travel seems to be the key to my happiness, no matter where I go. This’ll do for now, hehe.
I’ve been doing a lot of it and I’ve decided it helps me stay happy. Unlucky I haven’t had the chance to do it for the past few days because of all the French etc. Stress took over…but now I have another 9 days until the next exam and I won’t worry until my French teacher undermines my confidence once more than she already has and makes me think I should memorise the dictionary. I think the reason why I seem to have an edge over other people doing French is because I have a generally better understanding of English – 40% of English is made up of either archaic or modern French – so I can guess what the paragraph or specific word means without having looked it up. It worked all well and good in AS, but they’re testing your arrogance it seems in A2, just to get you ready for uni. Or it feels that way to me, because I don’t look at exams as a simple ‘test your knowledge’ thing, it’s more of a life experience as well – the pressure, the time limit, the silence you need to endure (in my case at least), and the tension surrounding this difficult time in everyone’s life as you can almost see the red seething off everyone as they storm about the school thinking they’re the only one that feels this way and when they realise they’re not, they get even angrier about it. Luckily, this happened to me in Year 9 for SATs, so I’m good now and can rise above all the other pricks.
Is this what You expected from me in this blog? I don’t really know where I’m going with this, as in all other blogathings I’ve done so far. All I can say is that I’m slightly more relaxed than the last few times, and getting a bit more prepared for A2 by simply learning words from a nice little revision book, which also tells me how to pass, because I’ve self-taught all this year, which I think I explained last blogathing. If not, I’ll explain in the next one.
Anyway must be off, got some Media revision to do (watching The Creature From Beyond The Skies) fuck this will be enlightening and boring at the same time, but hey. Ciao for now, I’m off for some cold beers and a nice Sunday afternoon. Text me, it makes me happy.
You know the whole ‘know you’re going to die’ thing? Where you go through loads of different emotions and come out at acceptance?
I’m past anger for now, though Grandma coming round and telling me I was ‘red about the cheeks’ didn’t help – family members are included in my frustration and anger at them. Anyway. Yeah, feeling a lot better, flirting with frenchies, watching the cat settle down and sleep outside in the sun, trying to avoid placing my arms anywhere because they’re so fucking sunburnt…
Wait, what?…
NEW CHARLIE THE UNICORN! http://uk.youtube.com/watch?v=QFCSXr6qnv4 actually hilarious. FUUUGUUUU!
So that makes me crazy…
I really don’t know what to say because I’m in a relatively good mood and re-watching Charlie repeatedly. If only there was a repeat button for those videos. Man I’m tired from all this revision. I’m sure I’ll feel better tomorrow.
Ciao to be honest, I am so boring. And You wouldn’t believe how enlightening it was just to see You for like 20 seconds.
Ciao for now, I’m off for some cold beers and a nice Sunday afternoon. Text me, it makes me happy.